I am starting this blog as a way to get my written words heard, though they may not always make the most sense to those who don`t get the feelings.
Nevertheless, I`m and certain that there are others who have similar emotions such as I write to express or convey.
I also try to express my feeling in more ways than writing in the moments. I like to show through art and photos! Through signs and poetry!
So if in my walk through these Steps help another, makes it all worth it!
What is the cause for sleepless nights? Are they the bad memories full of nightmare starters? Or is there fear of what might happen if you are not paying attention? Is there pain so agonizing that that is all you can think about, whether physical or mentally?
There are many reasons for sleep to evade us in the night, but we all know that there are also nights when the mind is burning the candle at both ends, and you are just wide awake.
So, is thinking always the best thing to do as you are about to drift off to sleep? Or is it a better thing to empty the train station full of ideas, memories, and thought, and form a drifting prone shape to view in the place of the other thoughts?
There is a lot that happens in the mind, even when we are shut down to asleep. We are an organic machine with constant functions being performed and calculations being run.
Thinking about that is truly an interesting fact! Though its not necessarily great to think about at nigh, because it will just draw you further in to pondering. Its like when you have car sickness and people say that if you focus on a still object (often like the horizon) it will go away. However for me after finding a still object I begin to think on how the earth is in constant rotation, constant movement….. and that just often times makes it worse.
I find it easier to have clear thoughts at night, probably due to the fact that its quieter that the day time hustle. Which is good if, you have no intention of sleeping, which I must admit that I have often fallen to. It seemed like a better idea to write some of these thoughts down or get other work done, verse tossing and turning with no results.
Though I do try many thing to help me to fall asleep, before succumbing to the fact that sleep once again alludes me. I will try reading. Such as the Bible or some other book I have already read, so I would not get drawn into it to find out what happens.
I even try listening to audio books! The best ones are the ones I have already listen too, for the same reason so as not to get drawn in. This seems to work a little bit more than reading a physical book because I can rest my eyes and get all comfortable. Though I do keep the volume just a little bit below normal hearing range so I can relax into the quiet enough to hear the soothing voice of the reader reading the book. I have found that this helps a lot! However after awhile it does seem to fade so I like to switch it up and do different techniques.
I will also listen ti music! I`ll have a playlist with just instrumental music, because I find that does better than song with lyric that get my to humming along. Symphonies and soundtracks are a good portion of what I have, once again at a low volume to help me sink into the silence.
However sometime I even just lay there and dive deep into a story of my making. Adding very detailed scenes and colorful character with difference flaws and behaviors to design a vast story to occupy my time. Even doing that sometimes helps me drift off to sleep without even realizing.
So at last I have just concluded that the mind is indeed a mysterious and grand part of our human being. It hold many wonders that we may never figure out! But I guess that`s okay, because if we know everything that there is to know then what would be the purpose after that point?
There will always be questions with answers out of our reach, but in due time all will be revealed at the hour true necessity.
Have you had that action of comforting, or at least trying to comfort a friend; yet the reassuring words and warmth run dry when spoken to yourself. When you are closed to the open words, how do you overcome such downed responses?
Much to my way of thinking, it seems a dejected approach to aspire to be better in ones sensation coursing through their soul. Not one body is capable of alleviating its own dispirited core. So its apparent that be some design we humans should not live in complete solitude, away from those who are there to help, in disguise.
Have you ever been in a the place to full that it appeared so empty, and void of life? Could there truly be such a place that will be shared among those of the lost and hope-forgotten? How come its filled with meaningless actions; or at least actions that appear to be?
For I can remember the countings and the miscountings of such times. Of the times where it seems too lost, hopeless, and to painful to go on. Also with such longing of peace and understanding of the reasonable purpose that drives the young to be so weary at heart, mind and soul.
As the times go on by; with them just increasing the debt, with only the hurt and/or by being the release as words on the page; it just adds up. Is there a true, as well as right way to release all that gets kept up with? Also how are we to determine such rights to be the appropriate ones at said times?
Now as these ponderings go through my numb mind; where do they all go? It seems as if they get organized and filed away to be used or remembered on later. However, when the times come for them to be reckon`d on, they are lost! As if the grave holds them captive, keeping them firm for the owning. So, what is really the point? Is the mind, the brain, actually suppose to be used for such purposes?
Anyhow, for all these quizzical notions; I sincerely pray to find the knowledge, and understanding for me to figure out this thing we call a purpose-filled life.
Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.
— Oscar Wilde.
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Like the water pouring from the faucet alone, I pour out my solemn prayers. Same as the liquid drenching my hair and is streaming down my face; so too the words drench my soul and fall from my lips.
Though commonly starting out as the frigged down pour; I send out my cries of sorrow for a guide, to help in trials of war. But sitting through the numbing misery and icy temps, realizations turn up the heat, warming my heart with the falling water.
Causing the prayers of gratitude to flow forth; gratitude for the mercies and gracefulness of the Most High, my loving Father!
As bitter-sweet, I thank Him for all the blessings He has given me, as well as those blessings I did not get. Because for whatever reasons, the outcome of happy, sorrow, or depressive feelings…. His ways are right.
There are going to times of confusion and blank-mindedness, but knowing that purposes are for a reasons, we should strive to accomplish our own in this small life on earth that we have been granted and blessed with.
Lets not waist it, life is a precious thing!
There are always more than one side to any situation. We just tend not to think of this in the moment. It’s not always about right and wrong or bad and good. However when it comes to human beings being on each sides, it adds an element that brings situations ways beyond the matters at hand. Why that is, I do not know. The real question is how will we all work on this in our lives?
Having a group divide with hesitant reasons, is an example. There are friends on both sides as well as those in the middle.
With the middle ground, it just lends itself to some awkward moments depending on what happens.
As for the side that took the first step back, it lends a feeling that the other are judging and building anger as well as hurting feeling about them. Which may or may not hold true.
With causes there will be effects. Same is true for the choices will have consequences.
Now the other side is in constant confusion and hurt and wonder at how this whole thing will turn out. Trying also to work through the break.
All parties not purposefully trying to hurt the other, the once close friends. So this brings the confusing situation to a totally different place.
Nevertheless, we are all human and we all cause and are presented with situations of all kinds. What we just need to have on hand is the loving grace, and mercy and guidance of the ultimate Father above!
People dwell in the bad, in the failings of others. No one notices what they truly do, but all the same, do it. “Out f the mouths of babes.!” Though the child is naive and uneducated of the misguided actions of this world; they have the wisest and cleanliest minds.
For the young and new see the good, and hate to dwell in the bad, the wrong. Why is it our humanness gets in the way of recognizing our own behavior? Or even just choosing the wrong. When does the switch happen? The switch from innocent to the contaminated.
Now I understand the patches of true hard life people, and that could lend a hand in the contaminating process. However, if we all came up as if just, literally, grown children , can you imagine the creative world this would be? It is pretty hard to think on, due to the lack of such happenings.
Have we ever actually set to make the contamination cleansed? Why not, if not? This world can only be helped if you make the stand; and aspire to be the good example!
We should all take the stand to show true goodness. Share the kindness, be helpful, love others more than yourself, build up the world! Do not destroy it, with crude behaviors and selfish and greedy actions. Be someone who the young should and would want to follow! Allow the good to be known as good; and keep the bad as being known as bad.
Where would you wish to dwell?
Are the seasons changing, or are they dying and striving to be new?
It life for the taking, or is it for the losing?
Through this continuous circle that we call life, we all rotate with it. We have all had the cravings, yet we stay on with our lists of work we ought to do. For are these bundles of actions our for choosing? Or does it come as an artificial kit?
The drippings of sadness are away of growing up, to be the person of whom? Of whom, this is the most asked question of all time. Yet how is it that not one person can give an answer; not just the answer, but any idea of a purpose for the reason. Now if there is a true purpose, then how come we always get charged with treason? With everything that gets found, why is it that never turns up? As it is, its the most desired quest of all time. But when searching, non-sense comes out, and all that is relieved is corrupt!
There are times of remembrance that casts you right back into the pools of tears. It happens from time to time, especially at the times you least expect it, but it still hurts all the same.
You just need to learn how to put aside so as not to go in to deep again. Pressing on is what the next step looks like, though the how and the to-where may stay unknown. However, it is known to the Creator.
The LORD has made everything for its own purpose,even the wicked for the day of evil.
Proverbs 16:4
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